When I was growing up, my father and I watched MASH religiously. The final episode Goodbye, Farewell and Amen is probably one of the best moments in television history. It chronicles what happens to the MASH unit when a ceasefire has been called and the feelings experienced when the unit learns that the war is ending and they are going home. It shows the effect that the war had on each individual and the lasting impressions that the war had on their lives. At the end of the episode, it shows everyone turning, walking away and moving on.
I’m sure that you are all probably wondering what the hell this ancient TV show, that many of you probably had to google for the reference, has to do with WoW and more specifically, Monolith.
The truth is that running a guild is a bit like fighting a war in a lot of ways. And it’s a battle that Brade and I have been fighting in excess of eight years. We’ve watched many casualties occur, and we’ve stood tall when so many others have crumbled. But the truth is that any war has a lasting effect on those who fight it – and after eight years it’s hard to keep fighting. Especially when you hardly recognize the war or the people standing next to you fighting.
Any decision of magnitude is difficult to make and is not made lightly. It’s exceptionally hard to know in your heart that you are making the right decision, yet have that decision feel so painful that it’s hard to breathe. I speculate that is how you truly know that you’ve made the right decision.
There is no outside influence to making this decision – no changes or new developments. No fears of failure or success. It is as simple as two grizzled and exhausted veterans deciding that it is time to stop fighting and go home. We’ve watched many of our friends fall and watched so many of the things that kept us fighting disappear. We’ve watched the game change, and held bated breath hoping that Blizzard would give us one more reason to keep pushing – only to have a valor point capped world crush our spirits and desires.
In the end, I am Hawkeye. And I am looking back at the casualties that I have encountered over the past eight years and I am trying to erase the pain. I have regrets and I have fond memories. I am ready to go home and experience a turned page, a new chapter. Monolith made magic and gave me many years of happiness and memories to look back on; with a new perspective, in a new light and from a distance.
It is time to return to something forgotten. It is time to find fun again, wherever and however that may be. It is time to walk away. It is with a wistful heart that I tell you all Goodbye, Farewell and Amen.